Worth it... 3 hours of back paining and eye straining totally worth it...

how many times do we get the feeling of doing something and then feel that its worth it. I like to sketch, well i am not any high profile sketching artist who takes surroundings and started drawing. but i like it. i just look up on internet and find the best ones and try to copy them and i feel that yes i can do that.
Yeah i can copy, but still haven't found originality it sucks sometimes, but maybe i am still in learning process. When i checked out that beautiful caged bird art on ghost stories cover i felt so inside that. "Man i gotta draw this".
I did the best i could do, and didn't allowed myself to do any mistake. and it turned out to be great.
I even thought of a great line for it...
We are free, yet caged... :)

 then i stared feeling that i should do something for my one of the worlds most favorite musicians and so i decided to make a silhouette painting and then that turned out to be this...

well its the hardest of all because you cant allow any mistake or its totally ruined. well i kind of have ruined the y there. :P but it feels so nice to draw something which is so meaningful for us. and i am sure i am gonna have this one with me forever. i might hung it in my room (Once i have a one). :)

then till the night i found another one, which was easy yet good. so at evening i draw that one.

 and finally i was still not satisfied that i wanted to draw those feather wings art, but it turned out to be so exquisite detail which i couldn't show in just a sketch. so i tried the beautiful butterfly instead and in between chats and reading i spend entire night working on it. and finished it at 3 a.m :D
and this is it.

the very thing i like about sketching is, just a little shade adds something so much to a simple drawing. it gives a depth which we want in it. it makes it beautiful just by a stroke. and you dont have to be any master or anything. well yes the originality, thats where all the point is. you can say something you drawn by yourself when you actually draw it without copying it. :) but still sketching will be the best of art i can do. i like when it glows with just a little brushing of black on surface. :) like magic dust of charcoal. its still beautiful. and now the last one which i originally draw with a photo of someone. well it turned out to be best in originality i can do. so here it is. :)

Well i wish someday i might be that practiced enough to sketch someone in front of me. Still i love whatever i draw cause it makes me beyond happy when i finally give it a final touch and i love it when i go through my old sketches. :)
so its totally worth it... the back paining due to leaning in to focus and eye straining to make no mistake. :)
and the last one when my friend gave it effects and it looks something entirely different i cant believe that i draw it...

eh? can you believe it? its the same drawing... :D 

so here's a one to great pleasure of doing something we love, even though no one admires it. :) well who cares. its for me...

Coldplay Solves My Soul...

             There must be no person in the whole world who doesn't like music or songs. and everyone has a specific spot in themselves for a particular song or even a small note. some inspires us and some makes us realize somethings which we can never explain.
             well for me I would say, from the minute I heard the first song of coldplay, I couldn't stop myself from listening the same song for hours by keeping the repeat mode. and it was "Every teardrop is a waterfall." For my grad school I had to travel half an hour to my college and while the journey the lyrics and notes of songs turned my days into something so different I can only experience. There has been an unbroken relation afterwards between my travels and coldplay songs. I downloaded the lyrics so I could soak the meaning of beautiful songs and every time I felt myself so happy the second any song would start on a guitar note.
Recently I found a quote on internet that "perfection is measured in coldplay lyrics" and I was 200 hundred percent agree with it.
                I read somewhere that coldplay music is styled as the meditative or blue romantic and I totally agree with it, It really helped me during some tough periods of my life. I would listen to the beautiful notes and cords along with chris martin's emotionally fulfilled voice pouring like rain for hours and hours and never want to turn that off.
           I am a classical singer too, well I am not really that devoted singer but I truly feel happy or touched by some extraordinary symphonies and I think thats why it makes me a good listener than a singer.
and its just really amazing that even right now while writing this blog I have "Sky full of stars" playing on, at the  back of my mind. It feels like you are listening to an invisible radio so far somewhere but still so close.
            I am already sure my life might lead me in any direction I want, but these songs will be with me in every journey I take. I will have them with me,  like the most desired thing which you want, and always feel safe that you have them.
To ColdPlay... My most favorite band in the world... Who makes me feel always- Extraordinary...
:)

Great books, and end of holidays...

       Sometimes I just don't get this, why every time in every holiday I get something good to read at the end? I spent 3 full months totally doing nothing except wasting my time on net, sleeping and yeah a short trip. And now when my holiday is this close to end I started reading a great book and now I don't ever want it to end.
     I found myself looking at my kindle reader at the page count and feeling sad as it goes towards the end. It has happened many times before too at the time I was reading Twilight's last book or Looking for alaska and many more.
     and this time I started reading "to kill a mockingbird". FINALLY!!! because I have tried to read it many times before but couldn't go further than 10 pages maximum. because of that boo radley first i thought its about a ghost or something like that animation movie of haunted house of neighbor. but then I made up my mind and decided to finish it somehow, and now when I am totally into this book. I don't ever want to know how it ends.
      I wander how some people can imagine or write such beautiful stories that we never ever want to stop reading. There are no difficult literature words, neither tragedies its just a simple tale from a 8 years old girl's view. and maybe thats why it seems so intense. It feels so real when their father gives them advices of simple good behavior. I felt so proud of our generation which has president Obama as a president of America, and suddenly I felt why his presence there is so utmost important. Its not just the way he struggled, there has been decades of struggling of all the people who strived for independence and freedom. I couldn't help but cry at the line where Jem says to change the law which makes black people guilty, and Atticus says
“You’d be surprised how hard that’d be. I won’t live to see the law
changed, and if you live to see it you’ll be an old man." and I felt so happy for a reason that we have changed the law, and we live in a world which does not care what is the color of our skin is.
Nothing is eternal in this world, the thing which you might feel will stay as it is and there is no possibility of change then it must be wrong. Because even the smallest efforts counts in the biggest changes and thats what makes us sustainable I guess.
To a great piece of literature... To kill a mockingbird. I will never forget a tale of a 8 year old girl which made my end of holiday unforgettable.

Welcome to elsewhere...

           Recently while searching for books, I found a pdf named Elsewhere. Initially when I started to read, i found it a really childish novel. around 20 pages I found what was really going on and then I started to get angry on that girl named Liz.
           Well angry for this because, books theme is based on after life. It depicts an idea of existing another parallel world where we get to live our life backwards and then when we become little babies again one day we get the birth on the earth again.
           So the girl gets pretty upset when she hears about all this stuff, and she wants to go back to earth.
The only question my mind was yelling that, why? why? why?
           why would anyone wanna come back to the getting old, fear of dying, and another many reasons which makes living forward difficult? Elsewhere sounds like perfect place where we can never get old, we get to choose any job we want through acclamation something. we get younger day by day, there is beach, and man there are people of our ages too. we get to live with people we once lost. Its like a perfect idea for afterlife.
         but apart from this, story goes on well, finally liz found her life worthwhile living in elsewhere. she grows backwards and get born as a baby again.
          when I was thinking about this, I found myself so excited about the concept of having such arrangement after our death. well who knows what happens to our soul, or where our thoughts goes. Its like so much mystery to explore.
        Well for me, i found death very fascinating. Its like making our life worth living. Its like after solving a 3 hours paper when you get the answer key. for entire life we have been thinking about what we should do, what we shouldn't do. and finally we are going to figure this all out at the end.
       I have a death wish like thing in my mind. I wish all the  thoughts people think, all the imaginary world they create they must be existing somewhere. I wish, there must be a Harry potter world, or twilight world where all the things the people imagined should be true. as if they were there, and now they imagined the part of worlds they had been, and we get to choose where we want to live in after we stop breathing. after we stop living or for an instance stop existing on earth.
       Maybe it seems too lame to think about something we are not going to find out until we went through it. but still its pretty creative though...
:)
so welcome to elsewhere... where you never get old, sick, no fear of death, and plus you know what is going to be your end. Thanks a lot for thinking this awesome idea.
                                                                                                          -To Gabrielle Zevin.

Sorry! no acceptable quality of work... :P

        Well it all started back when I suddenly had a feeling that I might need to find a job at least part time, to keep us going in our new life at pune. I became so afraid and searched all the (Well almost all :P) part time job opportunities on timesjob and naukri. I found many stay at home typing jobs which pays you 3 rs per page, but it seems so boring so i decided to go for something similar. and I searched in the category of content writing. well I applied 11-12 offers and I had email from a company to give sample article for first round.         I typed a 600 words article on football, as it seemed perfect timing for it. later that week I had another email from the same company to give two sample articles on fast food chains and one rewritten article from any of the news on msn.com. I spend entire day working on them.        I searched proper news to write about but since criminal news are actually based on research and writing about them seems pretty inappropriate. So I went to the travel instead, and found an article on Bali. Well after i finished "Eat,Pray,Love" i sort of have Bali on my wish list so i decided to write about it. I spent hour researching about Bali, and started writing, I had to complete article in 250 words exactly...        and I think this is where I lost it. How are you suppose to write on your favorite subject in only 250 words? Yeah I accept thats where the quality comes. I wrote 500 words and then cut them in order to wrap in around 300 words. I did the same thing about food chains and it became worse. :D         I sent it, and had no reply from them for last 3 days. and when I opened my mail account today, i found this,Sorry! no acceptable quality of work... Hmm, maybe writing about facts isn't my field of work. and even our expenses problem seems to be solved, so I should concentrate more on java internship or system analyst required.:)