Relativity... It all seems so minute and huge at the same time... :)

Today i had a brief meet with one of my friends. We were not really that close before but since we had been together in all the process of our admissions and we got the same college, its the things that still makes us friends here at my new college.
Well the things we talked about included our studies, some short notifications of our college updates, and yeah of course girls and relationships. for an instance i said that i might end up doing a arranged marriage. and he said, you will find someone really good because you are good. :D well he just said the sentence i felt the sudden change of the concept of marriage and all the entire life i still have in front of me.
The relativity makes us think of the time in a different manner as we may feel that its really moving slowly when we are in a boring lecture, and when we are with someone we know and feel comfortable with it seems to be finishing immediately. For whatever life or time i spent till now, i always felt that its all so huge and so complicated. our living, even small things like growing up,being an adult, taking responsibilities seems really frightening task sometimes. but when he said that sentence as if he made it all just so simple.
Well absolutely it is not simple, but when we think about it as a future projection it seems something never happening or unbelievable.
but we have a fuzzy feeling at the back of our mind, and slowly that image turns brighter and brighter and finally it emerges as the clearer picture.
Its not always unexpected, as it happens just like we thought.
Well i still have a long way to go. I have a blurred image of me being a independent person and in a affectionate relationship and a responsible adult.
:) anyway so gotta work for that then...
and think of the best that the blurred image will clear soon with amazing colors... :) 

Be a freak, if it helps... :)

There must be very few moments in our life, where we actually want to forget all the expectations we have from ourselves. and i had one in my freshers party. Who knew i was going to be among all of those and dancing like crazy. but i did it anyway... :D
I still couldn't believe it that that girl was me, but I enjoyed the event at the fullest. and thats what I am gonna remember.
once I heard a story in a soap opera. once a boy went for hiking with his friend, and while coming back his friend played a prank, as he decided to hide somewhere and frighten him. he got restless and couldn't think of anything to do. but when suddenly his friend appeared from no where, and he was so surprised that he just screamed like he was about to die,his friend was also surprised by his this reaction. he said that was the moment which changed his life, he became more extrovert from by then. more open to his feelings and start talking with people about what exactly he felt. I felt like last night could be my that moment.
I wish I could have such more moments in my life, where we just let go... and without thinking anything do something crazy and never regret them. :)
By all the rules and regulations we become like a pressure cooker, and once we get too much its just so relieving to finally let go of the burden. that adrenaline rush we feel makes us a little frighten, but its like a soothing drug. like being on the tip of a hill, and always knowing that we are never going to fall.
Its freaking ... but still amazing...
:)
Wish me luck guys... Life's about to take off... :)

unknown is better sometimes...

The question has always haunted me... how are we suppose to know where we really going to end. absolutely this is pathetic because when you are absolutely certain about something? even when we are definitely sure about something is going to happen 100% there is still 100% chance of suddenly things start changing.
uncertainty is sometimes worth having, as it makes us more adapted to  changes and we do start accepting facts more and more easily.
i do believe in positivity, that once we start believing something with our heart and mind to it, we get it anyhow. but still this feeling of doubt of never getting something we want never goes away. Every time we have to be alert about keeping our mind onto the positive wavelength is really exhausting.
I was just standing on bus stop waiting for my bus in the morning, and i saw a mother taking her kid to school. and i suddenly had thought, i would be in this position in few years, the girl around me will be in that situation too. probably a boy standing near to me would be at a different stage.
our dynamic states makes our life more interesting. projecting ourselves in future is always a favorite task of us. when i was in my graduation the only thing I thought was that i just want to leave my home town and go to a place where i will get more exposure. and now when i look back at my those days, i feel wow.. i don'd believe that i finally achieved it. now the next task or rather a big picture is to be make would be the great academics and my ultimate goal of finding a worthwhile job where i will achieve my next dream of being part of a high class corporate crowd.
and i always have to be alert about that dream, don't just imagine, live the dream thats what i wanna implement.
"the secret's" philosophy is a little difficult to believe, but i really experienced some great effects of it in my life. and who's rejecting the idea of thinking everything will be alright. not just by saying it. but actually working for it too.
it gives you some concrete base to rely on. and you try to give your best in all the things you do to achieve that thing.
I will be continuing of course that how my life is going to be . but i already know the virtual pages of my blog and the empty pages of my diary are going to be filled with the challenging and  joyous moment of my life. Well I still have a little uncertainty but no worry!!!
Thing will eventually be clear with time.... :)
Just have to wait for the right timing.