Monday, November 16, 2015

As if that’s what it takes to love someone :D



And in the middle of the risk mitigation, monitoring and management plan preparation I start remembering anna and the French kiss bits and bytes. And that is the moment you understand you are totally screwed by the effect of teen adult novels and the freaking paris and the freaking terrorist attack on paris.
I read the novel twice, thrice and many times as much as I can not count, and yet it feels like I haven’t got the best out of it.
I wonder what people think of the corny novels which has the happy ever after ends. Or whether people think that reading such novels is craziness because they keep you away from reality or makes your thinking very shallow. God forbid when I read my book review about “gone with the wind” I felt it as if I was in dream and I was reading a review of some another person. Well I have to admit it, I have got better in writing reviews. Yeyieee…
Well forget it. Suddenly I thought of the some things from Anna I felt whether its really worth finding the love of your life falling for you so easily. Absolutely I adore the happy ends, and I adore stephnie perkins for giving many girls like me a hope that that can happen(Atleast in a book) but even then it makes us kind of sad too I guess. That in reality we don’t land up in SOAP or meet the love of your life in the most freaking romantic city of the world, or find the boy next door your lover or even find the artist boyfriend whom you adore so much.
But we can and definitely can visit the point zero of notre dame, and see the grand bassin. Maybe in 2 years from now, or 20 years from now… :D
But I gotta give her this, she makes amazing trio of classic tales which are beautiful in own way. Movies, art, and illustration in everyday through clothing or automaton or décor it’s just overwhelming. Maybe that if why I like her writing, because I have interest in all these things which makes us different than others. I have my entire wall full of paintings and sketches I made, in my hall. I have a wind chime made by me hanging in our window. And when anyone visits our little flat and they always admire the creativity. Its like a tonic to keep going on.  To make something beautiful out of something small, and see the sparkling praise in people who admires me.
Well subject got carried away, but after reading anna almost 14th time, I felt I should write something.
Other than that, things going great. I got a job offer, on the way of internship training, and yes…
Risk mitigation, monitoring and management plan is still there, looking at me with a glare, so gotta complete it. Ha ha… J

Merci…

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Gone with the wind

           And when I finished the last page of the book which had been haunting me from last couple of weeks, I felt as if once again I am having a experience of something which has been so amazing.
Many a times when some things you like beyond limit, they stay in your thoughts for longer time. And the same happened with me with this one. I couldn’t take it out of my mind for two days, thinking about the consequences, happenings and my own opinion of this.
“gone with the wind”
I think many of you may have not read this book, as it’s a very old piece of literature, set in 1860’s and published in 1936. But I find myself very lucky that I started reading it , finished it and learnt so many things from it.
So here I am providing a link to Wikipedia page which will shortly tell you what the story is about.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gone_with_the_Wind

The first thing which hit me after I was rereading the last line of the book,
“she will think about these things tomorrow, not today. After all tomorrow is another day”
And then it slowly came to me, that whatever scarlet had done her entire life, whatever wrong decision she had done, she hadn’t thought about them. She always kept them for thinking for tomorrow. But her tomorrow never comes to her. The pile of things goes on in the list to think about them in tomorrow and she never ever gave a second thought to them and in the mean while everything was destroyed , just merely “Gone with the wind”.
When I first started reading the novel, I found scarlett very amusing at first, doing things on her own, as they pleased them giving the hell with the world look to everyone, even to those who had cared about her honestly.
Her this attitude comes with her early widow hood, and her struggle for life, a struggle to keep the people alive for whom she is responsible.
She makes a good heroin by being fierce, and confident and not afraid of anything but fear of losing something. Till the middle of the book. She carries on her mischievous behavior by her attitude driven by the unending urge to satisfy on something.
But then for all I understood, the real heroin of the book is Melanie. Often mistaken by us as the saint women who is little crazy to not be able to see how scarlett behaves with her, and how she never ever had appreciated her for her kind heart. And did things which were done only for the promise she gave to Ashley.
Melanie who seeks everything good in everyone, accepting people as they are and even keeping their images in her head intact even if she hears any wrong doing of them. The biggest thing she does is that, she never ever judge by the things people talk about them. I was crying my eyes out when she defends scarlett and Ashley even after she hears that her husband and her sister-in-law betrayed her. How can be someone so faithful on their own belief that people they love can never betray us.
We rather do the exactly opposite thing as we seek for the reasons that, when and how our own people may betray us, and that will be the end of our good behavior towards them. But Melanie… Oh Melanie. She shook our beliefs by being so blinded to her faith and trust, that the people who have betrayed us feel ashamed of their behaviors.
Melanie, who looks pale and small but has a heart of lion, brave enough to be ready to kill a person who is threat to her family. Melanie who is not really beautiful but believes that her husband loves her, no matter what may come.
Melanie who is sweet enough to even talk to a bad women, just because she thinks of her as nothing more than a person.
And even after all the up and down she goes, she stays steady as the rock on her love towards people, even when they betrayed her, even when they are bad by their reputation, even when they make her feel a little frighten, she still seeks for the soul in them. The soul of the person which lies deep within, hidden under the layers of the pretending, or show off of what they are not, often resulting into their bad reputation, she look at them as clear as the clear drop of water, even when they are mutilated by the wrong things they have done.
Rhett who is a non-gentleman who speaks only of truths, even when its bitter and far too naked for the people to hear. I loved the way he make us see what scarlett really is. He reads her like a slate, even guessing her thoughts right. But still loves her deeply regardless of her childishness, her lack of interest in him as her lover, her tantrums and inability to understand how to handle people without hurting them.
Another most important thing which book depicts as, how love can be complicated and how we often misunderstand what lies in our heart actually. The moment scarlett agrees that she was in love with a person she just made up, she looked at Ashley as mere actor acting the character she made up.  But reality is far from what she had thought and it startles her at the end, when he sees what Ashley really is. And all her imaginations, love leaves her the very minute when his real person get revealed in front of her.
And here scarlett and Melanie displays us two different sides of a same coin. As Melanie tries to love what people really are, and scarlett is loving how she want people to be.
And at the end, of course Melanie wins as she seek the truth.
We often make our own assumptions about people who meets us, and try to cling to them as gradually we understand them. I have often experienced this that many a times, the people who we hear bad gossips about turned to be as pleasant as a person can be, or even opposite side as the people we thing will be having the good nature but they turn out to be the exact opposite.
I think for this the melanie’s way of looking at everyone as a clean piece of paper, and even though our opinions get violated by any situation we shall write only the good things about them on the paper. Then there will be no two sides, rather it will be plain as the truth and also acceptable.
 I enjoyed reading every bit and every line of the book, suckling it as a candy, taking in its beautifulness and understanding. To a great piece of literature. “Gone with the wind”.



Monday, September 28, 2015

Winter is coming... And so is the Game of thrones...

The first time i ever saw Game of thrones was its making. One of my friend had this in his laptop and i watched it but i thought of it as boring as what am i seeing.
After few months the first season stayed in  my laptop, and suddenly one day i opened it and watched And then i couldnt stop myself from it, I watched entire season withing 2-3 days, told him to give me all of those seasons and then the amazing journey began. 
First when i searched it on internet, i found out that its based on novel named 'the song of ice and fire'. and my happiness kind of doubled, as i was damn sure that this much rich content cant be pulled onto screen just by script writing. I downloaded all 4 books available and started reading them, but damn... it was a tiresome work, and i wished it could just give a short summery at the end to know what the entire book says, but yet i was curious and excited to explore the world of Martin. 
After finishing the books, i felt as this man must be a legend or something, otherwise how can he write such vast story and each and every moment of it is like magic. And i became obsessed with GoT then...
the first thing about Fantasy novels is that , sometimes you feel why are we wasting so much time of something that is just imagination of someone, but then we get an answer as its not just fantasy man.. its meant to be written, the greatest works are of imagination and we must be a part of its legacy. 
and now after the most successful show on hbo run, the game of throne is proven to be having blend of of, the magic, the curiosity, the kings and the politics, the wide range of characters, the moments which leaves you upset, the moments where you laugh , and still cant get it out of head... Like a curse... but a beautiful and powerful one though.
The way it is going, and the way martin says "I dont know why people are waiting for the next novels, as they are just going to cry." but its alright, we will cry by wish. and still eager to know where it all ends. As all men must die, yet we know they also live... 
I shall come back to GoT, and i will write one more blog on this, the day i will find who the hell is Jon's mother and father... :D 

but still... To my most favorite show... 

The Game of Thrones... 

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Krishna and 64 Qualities

my very own creation of calligraphy of Shri. Krishna! :) containing all 64 of his qualities of supreme soul...


Tuesday, August 11, 2015

The one

He, who believes in me! be with me all the time...
Who accepts my apologies, my anger, my devotion
All in the same manner, with a smile
I owe him the greatest respect of all.
Who made me, and the world around me so far
He made the sunlight, to let me see the beauty he holds.
He made the speed and void to make me feel the depth.
He, who made the sorrow and the happiness,
So I could see the difference,
He never expects neither angered,
Who only wants me to remember his presence…
He, who is beautiful as all the beauty in the world,
Who creates the moon and the stars,
To remind me how small still I am.
He is the one who made me and made me what I am.
He is the one who knows what is better for me.
The one who knows what cause harm to me…
He goes on, filling my life with unexpected changes
Still I believe He is my true believer,
He knows what I am capable of,
He gives me challenges so I can know what I can do,
He gives me happiness, like the rewards we give to children.
He is my everything, the father, the mother, the sibling
The friend, the believer, the companion.
He makes me feel as large as all infinity could be,
He makes me feel small as all the negative infinity could be,
He is the one, who made me, who drives me, who ends me,
They call him God. I don’t know what to call him.
He just smiles, he doesn’t need a name to call.
He just needs me to remember him.
In all my times…


Saturday, August 8, 2015

The pheonix and Lincoln

A few days ago one of my best friends was feeling depressed and tensed about some of the career related issues. We talked about them in the night and then at morning when I woke up the first thought I had been of this thing. I instantly what’s apped him and told him some things I could tell to cheer him up.
As I went of talking I remembered a story I read about Abraham Lincoln in “chicken soup for the soul”. And I felt it will better cheer him up so I typed the whole thing and sent him. which goes like this.
Abraham Lincoln Didn't Quit
The sense of obligation to continue is present in all of us. A duty to strive is the duty of us all. I felt a call to that duty.
Abraham Lincoln
Probably the greatest example of persistence is Abraham Lincoln. If you want to learn about somebody who didn't quit, look no further.
Born into poverty, Lincoln was faced with defeat throughout his life. He lost eight elections, twice failed in business and suffered a nervous breakdown.
He could have quit many times—but he didn't and because he didn't quit, he became one of the greatest presidents in the history of our country.
Lincoln was a champion and he never gave up. Here is a sketch of Lincoln's road to the White House:
1816 His family was forced out of their home. He had to
work to support them. 1818 His mother died.
1831 Failed in business.
1832 Ran for state legislature—lost.
1832 Also lost his job—wanted to go to law school but couldn't get in.
1833 Borrowed some money from a friend to begin a business and by the end of the year he was bankrupt. He spent the next 17 years of his life paying off this debt.
1834 Ran for state legislature again—won.
1835 Was engaged to be married, sweetheart died and his heart was broken.
1836 Had a total nervous breakdown and was in bed for six months.
1838 Sought to become speaker of the state legislature—defeated.
1840 Sought to become elector—defeated.
1843 Ran for Congress—lost.
1846 Ran for Congress again—this time he won—went to
Washington and did a good job.
1848 Ran for re-election to Congress—lost.
1849 Sought the job of land officer in his home state—rejected.
1854 Ran for Senate of the United States—lost.
1856 Sought the Vice-Presidential nomination at his party's national convention—got less than 100 votes.
 1858 Ran for U.S. Senate again—again he lost.
1860 Elected president of the United States.

The path was worn and slippery. My foot slipped from under me, knocking the other out of the way, but I recovered and said to myself, "It's a slip and not a fall."
Abraham Lincoln After losing a senate race
Source Unknown

We talked so many things related to this story. And we came up to the bottom line as Lincoln had even the worse obstacles than us, and even after that he became the president of America . The most powerful man in mankind. We have rather all the things we need , parents to care, support us, enough money to keep us going. And our aim is not even high as him, we just have to earn a job which gives us satisfaction and excel in it. My friend felt better after that and we decided to move on from the past failures and look ahead with our efforts.
Then after this incidence I went for a campus drive and couldn’t make through the first round. I felt so disappointed after coming home since I had prepared for this and I felt maybe my luck wasn’t with me that day to get me through it. My parents consoled me when I started crying over this and regretting the thing. And my father (who does not really talk much ) said that “if you get something easily, you never get its value. Your success will even matter more when you will strive more for it” and I felt the contradictions of our situations again. As  just few days ago I was telling the same words to my friend and now they were coming back to me. Just in another form.

I always prepare one question for my HR interviews as “how do you handle a failure?”
I would say that “I actually don’t believe that there are books which will change our life in one day. Or the people who will change our thought process in a day. I believe that inspiration for our win has to come from within. I believe that the confidence and spirit you need to achieve a grand success has many days and nights spent by arguments with ourselves. And then you get a one aim and then you start doing everything you can to chase it. Chase it until you finally have the moment of victory. So that’s how I handle my failure, by seeing what were my mistakes and what went wrong in my past attempt. And I would overcome those in my next attempt. Once I heard a really good line, “ commit as many mistake you want, but do not repeat them…”
And that would be my strategy to overcome them.
When we are on the verge of something we go through lots of thoughts, some of fear for failure , some for imagining the moment of happiness, and some utterly horrible visuals of not getting something we want. But we need to control them at least till we have given our try.
Opportunities are coming again now. And I have to be prepared for them. J
Since Abraham Lincoln didn’t quit, We cant either…

Wish me luck everyone… 

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

A LITTLE PROGRAMMING...

Tomorrow is my persistent aptitude for internship program, and while preparing i found some of the programs which took me little time to cover up. but somehow i did them . i am posting them here, so people can use them in future.. :)

1.  program to copy one file content to another, by removing extra spaces.

#include<stdio.h>
#include<conio.h>
#include<stdlib.h>
#include<iostream.h>

void main() {
   FILE *fp1, *fp2;
       int i=0;
   char ch,ch1;
   clrscr();

   fp1 = fopen("Sample.txt", "r");
   fp2 = fopen("Output.txt", "w");

   while (1)
{
      ch = fgetc(fp1);

      if (ch == EOF)
break;

      else if(ch==' ')
{
   if(i==1)
   {
   }
   else
   {
   fputc(' ',fp2);
   i=1;
   }

}
else
{

fputc(ch, fp2);
i=0;

}

}

   printf("File copied Successfully!");
   fclose(fp1);
   fclose(fp2);
   getch();
}


*if u are using turbo c, please do this program by keeping into bin folder, I dont know why but it idnt worked properly on other folers.

2. Program to give output as aabbccee if the input is given as abceacbe.
#include<stdio.h>
#include<conio.h>
#include<iostream.h>
#include<string.h>

main()
{
char str[10];
int i=0,j=0;
int count[127];
while(j<=127)
{
count[j]=0;
j++;
}
clrscr();
cout<<"Enter a string\n";
cin>>str;
cout<<str<<"\n";

 char c;



while (str[i]!='\0')
{
//cout<<int(str[i])<<"\t";
count[int(str[i])]=count[int(str[i])]+1;
i++;
}

j=0;
while(j<127)
{

int k=count[j];
while(k>0)
{

c=j;
cout<<c;
k--;
}
//cout<<count[j]<<" "<<" ";

j++;
}



getch();
}



3. Program to display a matrix in spiral way.
ie. if the matrix is
1 2 3
4 5 6
7 8 9

 then output will be: 1 2 3 6 9 8 7 4 5



#include<stdio.h>

#include<conio.h>
#include<iostream.h>

int main()
{
int r,cl,i,j,k;
 int mat[4][4];
 clrscr();
cout<<"\n enter rows and column of matrix";
cin>>r>>cl;


 cout<<"enter elements of matrix";

for(i=0;i<r;i++)
{
for(j=0;j<cl;j++)
{
   cin>>  mat[i][j];
}
}
cout<<"\n matrix:\n";
for(i=0;i<r;i++)
{
for(j=0;j<cl;j++)
{
    cout<< mat[i][j];
    cout<<" ";
}
cout<<"\n";

}


int x=0,y=0;
int a=0,b=0,c=r,d=cl;
//cout<<matrix[0][0];

while (a < c && b < d) {
while (y<c) {
cout<<mat[x][y]<<" ";
y++;
}
x++;
y--;
while (x<d) {
cout<<mat[x][y]<<" ";
x++;
}
x--;
y--;
while (y >=a) {
cout<<mat[x][y]<<" ";
y--;
}
y++;
x--;
while (x > b) {
cout<<mat[x][y]<<" ";
x--;
}
y++;
x++;
a++;
b++;
c--;
d--;
}

getch();
}