Friday, May 23, 2014

Its just Miracle...

     The first time I saw my maternal place in kokan, in a small village, I knew that I was going to be darn in love with kokan. I might be 7 years old for the first time when I went to my mother’s home at chiplun.
      I still remember the smell of soil, ripe mangoes, and fish which came through the door, and when I passed it I saw my grandmother welcoming me at the door. Our house is still there, built in soil, mud, and big red bricks as they are in kokan. The floor is covered in gober and mud as it is in most of the houses at kokan. We have a little well behind our house which is mostly filled with water in all season, where the little turtles and frogs float, along with our own reflection.
        I remember some days I spent there for some reason,
The day when I saw the real snake in my life ever. I was 8 or 10 years maybe. I was collecting flowers in the bushes for the reason I don’t remember, and suddenly I heard a unusual hissing sound coming from the dried leaves and I saw a gray colored snake going into the bushes, I felt so afraid as if I’d done something wrong and I ran from there paralyzed with fear. While panting I told mother that I saw a snake there, and she said it’s nothing, there are some snakes in the bushes. I felt why she is being so casual about it? I saw a real SNAKE…
       I remember my father going into the jungle through the little stream of water on the back of our house, which is mostly filled till the knee length only in the season of monsoon. He would stroll in the water as if its road and would go to further in the jungle.
I remember one day in rain. In kokan rain doesn’t feel like it’s mostly raining, it feels as if someone if pouring water through sky, I rain so heavily that all the mud and soil would flood away with it. Through the window we could see red water flooding as if its waterfall. We felt as if our house if floating in that waterfall. There were no light, and we stayed in the kerosene lamps, eating rice and fish.
         I remember once when I was returning to my place with bus, and it was really a pleasant evening when the sun rays were so orange and golden enough to make the red mountains look like they were dipping in sun light. It was the most beautiful evening I ever spent just looking at their beaming with sun light as if they were mirrors reflecting sun.
        My grandmother passed when I was little, so automatically we couldn’t really visit our home back there as before.
Then we would make trips at kokan, at beaches, at temples. And all I remember is the long stretched roads, with the trees of mangoes, cashews along side of the road. The roads taking curves as the snakes, and you feel as if you are sitting in the large cups at the fun fair which revolving around.
      Recently when we visited kokan we spent on entire evening at beach just strolling on the sand and small waves. It was a time for low tides and all the water has gone behind leaving beautiful trails of waves on sand, and sand wet enough to draw anything on it. The sky was painted in orange, blue, and purple and pink the color you name it was there as if it was made up of rainbow. And its beautiful reflection was on the wet sand making the whole beach as a big canvas painting where the sky was drawn in watercolor. Along with waves so clear enough to see the trails it was making.
     Yet I don’t know what is more beautiful the sea made up of so many miracles, or the moon which creates the waves or the sky which makes it look so beautiful or the horizon which makes sea infinite to look. It always has been an amazing experience whenever I went to a beach and saw waves breaking on the shore or the sun dipping into the sea leaving its orange color upon the sky.
      I think its one of the places which inspires me, yet make aware for future and even calms my mind like meditation. 
Its just miracle.



Saturday, May 3, 2014

A story of Hope-"shawshank redemption"

   How many of you people have ever watched the film “shawshank redemption”? well those who haven’t yet, I would like to tell you this… you got to see it…
    It’s the story of hope, prison, emotions and finally freedom.
Well first of all I had this film in my laptop for like and year, I thought as this movie was war based something so never really watched it before, but today was the day when I finally saw it, and for the first time in so many months I felt I saw a movie worth inspiring this much.
    It not only has a beautiful story to tell, but also loaded with inspiring quotes , and also some moments where you feel like where the hell we have been not to notice such a great pain and loss which destroys a man’s life because a crime he committed or maybe did not.
    The moment I felt like crying when the old brook dies by hanging himself by the rope, giving us a shock by reality that how difficult it might be to gain  a suddenly new life after spending it in really different way for 50 years.
     When we are finally thinking that Andy will just fed up and die, there’s like miracle where we found out he just escaped, escaped from a tunnel. We have already considered that with that stone hammer no man can dig a tunnel deep that, but then suddenly we just found out he was that man who did that, by being hopeful for 20 years. He digs that tunnel to escape. And that’s the best part I guess.
    And the best moment was when red is reading Andy’s letter. When he wrote that “hope is good thing, maybe the best of the things, and no good thing ever dies.”
     I sometimes avoid to use the word hope, it makes us somewhat weaker I think. Like we are waiting for something magical to happen, which is worthless, because magic only occurs in dreams and in Hogwarts. The more I believe is the word efforts, every time someone gives be best luck and courage, I say “I will try my best.”
    Which is the one sentence gives me courage to give my best shots and that everything will be good. I think it’s my form of hope, but anyhow some times in our life it doesn’t matter how much life suck or either how at the dead end we are,
All we gotta believe is that,
“Hope never dies,

So I will try my best…”

Sunday, April 20, 2014

What I have been waiting for…

      Recently I was reading my favorite book chicken soup for the soul on the one night before my exam paper,and  I found an awesome story there.
It’s a list of 100 things for which the writer is waiting.
1. Inspiration
2. Permission
3. Reassurance
4. The coffee to be ready
5. My turn
6. Someone to smooth the way
7. The rest of the rules
8. Someone to change
9. Wider fairways
10. Revenge
11. The stakes to be lower
12. More time
13. A significant relationship to:
(a) improve
(b) terminate
(c) happen
14. The right person
15. A disaster
16. Time to almost run out
17. An obvious scapegoat
18. The kids to leave home
19. A Dow-Jones of 1500
20. The Lion to lie down with the Lamb
21. Mutual consent
22. A better time
23. A more favorable horoscope
24. My youth to return
25. The two-minute warning
26. The legal profession to reform
27. Richard Nixon to be re-elected
28. Age to grant me the right of eccentricity
29. Tomorrow
30. Jacks or better
31. My annual checkup                                                                                                 32. A better circle of friends                                                                                    
33. The stakes to be higher                                                                                       34. The semester to start
35. My way to be clear
36. The cat to stop clawing the sofa
37. An absence of risk
38. The barking dog next door to leave town
39. My uncle to come home from the service
40. Someone to discover me
41. More adequate safeguards
42. A lower capital gains rate
43. The statute of limitations to run out
44. My parents to die (Joke!)
45. A cure for herpes/AIDS
46. The things that I do not understand or approve of to go away
47. Wars to end
48. My love to rekindle
49. Someone to be watching
50. A clearly written set of instructions
51. Better birth control
52. The ERA to pass
53. An end to poverty, injustice, cruelty, deceit, incompetence,
pestilence, crime and offensive suggestions
54. A competing patent to expire
55. Chicken Little to return
56. My subordinates to mature
57. My ego to improve
58. The pot to boil
59. My new credit card
60. The piano tuner
61. This meeting to be over
62. My receivables to clear
63. The unemployment checks to run out
64. Spring
65. My suit to come back from the cleaners
66. My self-esteem to be restored
67. A signal from Heaven
68. The alimony payments to stop
69. The gems of brilliance buried within my first bumbling efforts to be recognized, applauded and substantially rewarded so that I can work on the second draft in comfort
70. A reinterpretation of Robert's Rules of Order
71. Various aches and pains to subside
72. Shorter lines at the bank
73. The wind to freshen
74. My children to be thoughtful, neat, obedient and self-supporting
75. Next season
76. Someone else to screw up
77. My current life to be declared a dress rehearsal with some script changes permitted before opening night
78. Logic to prevail
79. The next time around
80. You to stand out of my light
81. My ship to come in
82. A better deodorant
83. My dissertation to be finished
84. A sharp pencil
85. The check to clear
86. My wife, film or boomerang to come back
87. My doctor's approval, my father's permission, my minister's blessing or my lawyer's okay
88. Morning
89. California to fall into the ocean
90. A less turbulent time
91. The Iceman to Cometh
92. An opportunity to call collect
93. A better write-off
94. My smoking urges to subside
95. The rates to go down
96. The rates to go up
97. The rates to stabilize
98. My grandfather's estate to be settled
99. Weekend rates
100. A cue card
101. You to go first
David B. Campbell.


So here is the list of 100 things the writer was been waiting. I thought at least I can try finding out what I am waiting for… so here it goes.
1.     To complete my graduation with satisfactory marks
     2.     A renowned post-graduation college
     3.     A real college life with true friends
     4.     Recession to end
     5.     For a campus interview to get a job
     6.     A high profile job
     7.     For a first payment to take a gift to my family
     8.     For my own bike
     9.     For my own car
    10.    For my own house in the middle of city
    11.     A extra large bookshelf
    12.    A new pair of contacts with gray shade
    13.    A laser operation
    14.   A trip to Malaysia, France, New York city, Maldives’ beach
    15.  Sky dive
    16.   Deep sea dive
    17. A jackpot
    18.  One chance to do many things
    19.  End of my stage fright
    20. End of my communication fright
    21.     Restoring my confidence
    22.    End of nervous breakdowns
    23.     My own apple i-pod
    24.My first published book
    25.  A simple comment of praising(without any ‘but…’)
    26. A proposal
    27.  A kiss
    28.   A proposal to marriage
    29.    A peaceful life
    30.   World changing event
    31.   And finally a death- to find out where this all leads…
Oops… still something remaining…:P

If there’s afterlife… well let it be…J

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

A successful life or an incomplete one?

 The incidence happened few days ago. I was in pune for my campus interview, suddenly I had message from my sister saying a girl from her class committed suicide, By hanging herself to fan.
Initially I was shocked, obviously she was of my sister age hardly 18 years old. What might have caused to take such decision?  My sister said she was disturbed from few days, maybe boyfriend problem. Some days ago even I heard some shocking news about the girls from my classroom while we were gossiping among ourselves. I said that how girls behave so irresponsibly where we have so different thought process going on in this age. When we hear something like this we get shocked only.
Even though we are free to do whatever we want to do as being an independent women, aren’t there any limits we should have? We see so many incidence happening around us. We make huge regrets about the place of women in our society, isn’t this our responsibility to at least keep our dignity?
 I have seen some my friends life getting wasted due to this boyfriends and similar things, everyday I hear so many incidence from my sister about her friends.   
I wander why would they behave such? Is just wandering with so called love, enjoying (actually ruining) those days which are so important to built the life is so easy? Just today our one teacher said once you ruin your first 20 years of your life you can never be successful in your entire life. Maybe this isn’t totally accepted but it has a little meaning, as once we never have that maturity in the proper age we can never expect ourselves to understand seriousness of life.
I am not at all denying the relationships, love affairs to be the part of our life, those are obviously the best memories of our life, but this is even true if these relationships resulting into such ugly incidence what’s the use of our love interests?
Obviously our life isn’t only of ourselves, our parents, siblings have so many dreams, hopes from us. Is it right to end the only life we get for such miner things?

Actually I think the main base of our healthy mind and ability to choose what’s right for us lies within ourselves. We are the only once who can change our fate. And for that we only need to believe and understand where we want to end up. A successful life or an incomplete one?

Monday, January 13, 2014

Being on your own...

Phew…heartbeats are increasing. Going to face first interview of my life. This all seems so unreal. In nearly three months I will be a graduate, and hoping to be on my own. This is the dream I have been waiting for myself, to have a job, achievements and enough money to live on my own.
I wonder what my father might have felt during this period of him. But I think this is kind of amazing phase in everyone’s life. We grow, we go to school, we complete education, we get a job. And in the mean time watching at ourselves in the past seems so far.
I found a book recently “the secret”. Well it says you get all you want in your life if you wish for it with your heart and remain persistent about the wish. I think this is best way to give your best for whatever you want in your life. We think that our future is unseen and its unpredictable. But according to book it says whatever we are now is the result of our thoughts back in our past. We get exactly the same we wish for. So now I won’t say I don’t know where I will be in next 5 years, rather I would say I know where I will be.
I am going to be an independent woman, living in a metro city, my heart full of hopes and dreams about my future. I am going to live my life exactly the same way I wished it would be. J

So to being matured and taking first step into adulthood.  Wish me luck everyone…J

Monday, December 30, 2013

A Happy New Year...

Finally year came to an end. The seasons of beginning everything new and again is upcoming. On every new year I have different feelings about the year passed by and the year about to begin. But it seems to be felt on first day only, but this is even true that new year’s first day has a new crispy flavor like a new book which we can experience only on new years first day… :D
On the New Year eve of 2012 me and my sister had an awesome experience of the new year. We were awake till 12 am of 1 January 2013; I was logged on face book, checking some comments and status for a new year. We had clock and calendar on our desktop and we watched it changed from 31-12-2012 to 1-1-2013. And suddenly that year transformation felt real, As if we went through something invisible which made us 1 year grown up.
Well while looking back at the 2013 it does seem an amazing year. My graduation year.  I will be an graduate soon, having so much plans for upcoming year along with many preparations. Hoping this year will turn out amazing as before…There are many challenges approaching in the form of exams, interviews and even other unknown forms. Gotta be ready for them. J

a happy new year on pre new years eve…J

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Your favorite Quote...


 Well there are many quotes I like but some of my favorites are,
“Worry is like a rocking chair, it will give you something to do, but will not take you anywhere…”
“Don’t think about the future obstacles, you never know they might not come”
“The price of success is hard work, dedication to the job at hand, and the determination that whether we win or lose, we have applied the best of ourselves to the task.” - Vince Lombardi, American football coach

Well the first one. About worry! I found it in a daily quote book. And it stuck into my head since then. I realized how much time do we really waste on worrying about many things. Worries about future, worries about exams, then results, our mistakes and their effects… I felt so relieved after finding that we can simply move on by keeping past behind and stop worrying about future. And I simply understood that the worry will not take us anywhere. It’s a kind of phase where you started doubting yourself which ultimately leads to negative thoughts and a simple worry becomes a disaster, so from then whenever I started feeling low on my confidence I remember this quote and said to myself I should not waste time doing nothing, instead I should use the time to do something solid which can give me good results in future.
The second one is kind of the same; I do tell this to my friend too if they are in any confusion. And it’s kind of true even …
The next one I felt so appropriate for a lesson I learn in last few years. I truly realized that if you have worked properly and did everything needed in order to achieve what you wanted there is nothing to stop you from getting to your goal. It really helps you to overcome the obstacles you have in your path if you have given your best. And after then even you fail or did not satisfied expectations then understand that something was missing in preparation. This helps us to overcome the disappointments and we can start a new beginning for the next battle.

Well, a quote helps us to be realistic, everyone has some beliefs and they help us to bring the best out of us. These are some of my favorites; hope you would like them too…:)