Assumptions and Theory!

    Some days ago our research methodology lecture was going on and our teacher asked us hat whether it is possible for any of us to be great scientist like Archimedes, Newton?

      Nobody raised their hands, but then she said it is quite true that maybe none of you can be searchers like them, because whatever was basic to be find out has been already discovered by them.

     The commerce or any art graduate might not find any new search, as whatever the research will happen it will be the applied research. And it is because we take searches which had been already proven and try to find the applications out of it but this doesn’t mean that any comparison would be between the scientist like those and those who found the application of things. When it comes to Newton or Archimedes they were actually the carriers or the switches I think.

 Before Newton there were millions of apple failing on ground, before Archimedes the water was always falling  out of tub when body mass was dropped in it. But the Eureka moment was always when thought from nowhere clicks and it changed the world. Isn’t that’s pretty amazing and yet the most unsolved mystery has to be solved.

From where our thought came?

I read a logical sentence in a book. A man who loved his wife said, this whole love, feelings has nothing to do with mind and emotions. This all is just a reflection of a chemical reaction happening in my brain. I didn’t approve it at all.

How it can be just explained this simply?

How the whole point of our existence can be explained just by the chemical and physical reactions?

A logical person will always give explanations to every question, why did apple fell?

Why did water displaced?

Why every single thing does has its properties?

These all were the questions and answers were found by those who discovered the questions.

Because Newton had a question, he found its answer. Because Archimedes had a problem to solve, and the answer came to him (Well on inappropriate time.. :P)

But still that is why he became Archimedes, because kekule didn’t know the reason or structure of benzene the dream showed him. According to my logic, I think the universe gives right answers to those who ask. But I don’t think it’s this easier just to find something unknown to everyone.

And I live in an imaginary world where I always feel that its infinite.

Yeah, when Newton found gravity, but who’s gonna find why gravity exist?

Why does our this whole system exist?

Why does all the universe, milkyways and assumptions exist?

Why is life so complicated and beautiful at once?

If there are so many earths in universe then why cant they just come to us and explain this to us?

I read a sentence once, “Death must be really beautiful, whoever meets it, leaves living!”

J well it must be…

And why is there so much yet to figure out why people just suddenly gives up and stop existing.

Yeah we find links to logical and medical and physical explanations but at some part we just stuck and its like a full stop.

While parallel living in this whole system, why cant we just go beyond this?

If we can think and dream about the things which never even happened before or imagine something incredible which never existed before, where does all our thoughts come from?

I wish I could ask someone and achieve answers of,

How was your death?

Was it painful?

Do we exist after that?

Is there any heaven?

Did you met god?

How’s he like?

Is there any god?

There are things which exist and we try to explain. But it can never fully complete.

Our all assumptions are actually thesis, and we yet had not approved them as theory…

Bangluru-The City Of Gardens, Intelligent people, Beautiful Hotels and Fun....

Hi everyone, Just returned from a industrial visit from bangluru.

Well there is always a different feeling we get from every city, I get a comfy and habitual feel from my hometown miraj. Whenever I go to Mumbai I feel so exotic because of all the rush and shimmering lights and the entire surrounding there, which absolutely proves Mumbai to be the City of Lights. As I am living at pune now, I feel so relaxed with all the safe and secured environment and also it’s the most important phase of my life, pune feels like I really belong here.

And now I have visited bangluru I would like to say that it feels so natural and still beautiful metro city.

First of all, some things about my travel from pune to bangluru. We were 170 students altogether going by train to bangluru. We spent entire day and a night at train. Well I personally find train journey so exhausting but it was fun to be with friends, for once feeling responsible and yet surrounding was really funny and enjoyable. We all were so excited to visit bangluru. We reached at the train station of bangluru at 9.15 am. We had buses there to take us to our first hotel Banglore Gate.

The first thing we all noticed was the board on the train station saying “bangluru- the garden city”. And it really seems true as there are gardens at every 15 minutes. The roads were clean like the clean slates and air wasn’t at all feeling smoky or polluted like pune or Mumbai but it was clean and fresh like village.

As we reached to the hotel, we were really happy with all our arrangements there, as well as tasty breakfast with south Indian delicacies. We had our breakfast at around 10 am and then we were instructed to get ready for industry visit and the museum visit.

We left the hotel after lunch to visit the vishweshwarriyya museum. Well it’s a museum where you will find so many interesting things as how they actually work. It was really amazingly displayed and filled with so many interesting facts. I especially liked the big pen and the whispering dish- where if you whispered from one end of a dish your friend on the other side can hear you perfectly.

After this we visited the Iskcon temple. First it was really seeming as placed in the middle of city, but once we went inside it was really beautiful. We had to keep our cameras and bags outside and then pass through the security check before entering to the temple.

The most memorable thing about the iskcon temple was the walk on those tile and we had to chant the mantra with each step. At first for few steps no one was paying much attention, but once we approached to the temple closer everyone was carefully stepping on the tile and chanting the mantra aloud, it was like the amazing thing to notice to see a person who doesn’t seem so spiritual chant with each step loudly. Once we got exactly at the top of the steps we saw the city blinking in the lights below. And it was so beautiful view as the sun has just set on the horizon. And the huge top of temple was shimmering in the golden light.

This is the thing I always like about these places as they give you an out of place feeling, we just feel so detached from all the reality around us, and all we wanna do is to disappear in that feeling.

My one uncle left his job and well settled life to join the hare Krishna group. My all relatives thinks he must be crazy to do so, but whenever I think about this I feel as, if just being in that calm and soothing feeling of worship makes us feel so relaxed then how it would feel to be there 24/7. If he thinks that what his life is then it must be worth leaving everything else behind and going for something so differently. Well it absolutely doesn’t mean that I am supporting to leave everything else and going for worship for entire life, but it must be something really strong to make people change, well God knows!

Anyway so after we went inside we saw the god shri Krishna and radha and some other sculptures shimmering in the golden cloths and jewelries. I have seen them in the magazines of  iskcon but looking at them with eyes was just astonishing. The entire hall was shimmering with twinkling lamps and golden interior. The upper top of that hall was painted with beautiful paintings of hare Krishna. We exited from the temple and tasted the free Prasad of rice and curry there. And I remembered the quote from one of the magazine, that how the simple Prasad from the temple makes pupils of krishna feel so satisfied with hunger.

So the first day ended with the iskcon visit, and then we took our dinner and went to sleep.

The second day started with the industry visit, where we had to go to the ITI office at bangluru. We visited there production unit of ic’s, mechanical department of ITI, as well saw the different types of telephones which evolved through the time. It was really sad to listen that now as no one uses the telephones to contact, the ITI produces phones only for defense or army only. But it is the fact that the old things has to fall back with the evolving ones. But it’s still important to consider them also as it all started from the scratch itself.

So after the industry visit we went to our hotel to have our lunch and then after checking out we started our journey towards mysore. It took us 4 hours to reach at vrundavan garden because of all the traffic on the roads. It was all so dark when we reached there, and the lights were looking beautiful there. We walked towards the fountain where the famous laser show was going on, and somehow we were able to catch the final show.  And it really was beautiful. And suddenly from nowhere it started raining there. We were almost wet until we reached to the bus. And then we danced all the way to the hotel in the bus :D

Well there was no place even to stand properly but still we danced like freaks. :D

It was also the one of most memorable time I had in the trip. Once we reached to hotel, again it was so beautiful hotel where we stayed. We had our dinner and went to sleep.

And the last day we woke up at 5 to get to the famous chamundeshwari temple of mysore. It was just dawn and we were going from the hilly road towards the temple. The view of mysore above was just breathtaking. When we reached at the temple we saw the so huge top of the temple, shimmering with golden color. After 45 minutes of waiting in the line, we went inside the temple. And the smell of all the dhoop and scented candles made me feel really amazing. Its just like after a meditation we feel so calm and soothing.  We saw the goddess and prayed for few minutes, then returned back to the hotel for checkout and breakfast. After leaving hotel we went to the mysore palace, where also the swelling queue welcomed us. But yet it was awesome experience to see all the kings and queens paintings and accessories. All those roof tops and doors were carved in wood with beautiful carvings.  And the walls were painted with the British style paintings. It seems so unreal that how much our lifestyle has changed since then. It must have been pretty awesome to live in a big home like that. It would take entire day to even go through all those rooms :P

So after our lunch we again went for bangluru, as we had a train to catch from bangluru back to pune. We enjoyed the final photo session  on the station and finally our train arrived. We travelled again 20 hours to get back to pune, well it was pretty exhaustive but still I have energy to write this blog so not much :P

The most memorable thing about this trip was that I made few friends from other divisions of my college too.  Well I am a little introvert and it takes a little time for me to get used with someone, but I found a good friend on this trip that was similarly like me. She became my buddy for my entire trip and we enjoyed a lot. It was the most beneficial thing about this trip that I got to know other people from my college, whom I never even met. I had fun during the entire stay, and also a little break after a long time.

Now the busy schedule is ringing in the head with all the submissions and the studies, but I know I will take control of it all soon.  So I got to see another metro city of india, Bangluru- the garden city, silicon valley of india , the clean city and as well for me the ultimate holiday station.  I will absolutely like to revisit bangluru to visit all the destinations there.

So now taking your leave people, will see you soon with a new update. Wish me luck for my upcoming exams and also Happy Diwali… J

Relativity... It all seems so minute and huge at the same time... :)

Today i had a brief meet with one of my friends. We were not really that close before but since we had been together in all the process of our admissions and we got the same college, its the things that still makes us friends here at my new college.
Well the things we talked about included our studies, some short notifications of our college updates, and yeah of course girls and relationships. for an instance i said that i might end up doing a arranged marriage. and he said, you will find someone really good because you are good. :D well he just said the sentence i felt the sudden change of the concept of marriage and all the entire life i still have in front of me.
The relativity makes us think of the time in a different manner as we may feel that its really moving slowly when we are in a boring lecture, and when we are with someone we know and feel comfortable with it seems to be finishing immediately. For whatever life or time i spent till now, i always felt that its all so huge and so complicated. our living, even small things like growing up,being an adult, taking responsibilities seems really frightening task sometimes. but when he said that sentence as if he made it all just so simple.
Well absolutely it is not simple, but when we think about it as a future projection it seems something never happening or unbelievable.
but we have a fuzzy feeling at the back of our mind, and slowly that image turns brighter and brighter and finally it emerges as the clearer picture.
Its not always unexpected, as it happens just like we thought.
Well i still have a long way to go. I have a blurred image of me being a independent person and in a affectionate relationship and a responsible adult.
:) anyway so gotta work for that then...
and think of the best that the blurred image will clear soon with amazing colors... :) 

Be a freak, if it helps... :)

There must be very few moments in our life, where we actually want to forget all the expectations we have from ourselves. and i had one in my freshers party. Who knew i was going to be among all of those and dancing like crazy. but i did it anyway... :D
I still couldn't believe it that that girl was me, but I enjoyed the event at the fullest. and thats what I am gonna remember.
once I heard a story in a soap opera. once a boy went for hiking with his friend, and while coming back his friend played a prank, as he decided to hide somewhere and frighten him. he got restless and couldn't think of anything to do. but when suddenly his friend appeared from no where, and he was so surprised that he just screamed like he was about to die,his friend was also surprised by his this reaction. he said that was the moment which changed his life, he became more extrovert from by then. more open to his feelings and start talking with people about what exactly he felt. I felt like last night could be my that moment.
I wish I could have such more moments in my life, where we just let go... and without thinking anything do something crazy and never regret them. :)
By all the rules and regulations we become like a pressure cooker, and once we get too much its just so relieving to finally let go of the burden. that adrenaline rush we feel makes us a little frighten, but its like a soothing drug. like being on the tip of a hill, and always knowing that we are never going to fall.
Its freaking ... but still amazing...
:)
Wish me luck guys... Life's about to take off... :)

unknown is better sometimes...

The question has always haunted me... how are we suppose to know where we really going to end. absolutely this is pathetic because when you are absolutely certain about something? even when we are definitely sure about something is going to happen 100% there is still 100% chance of suddenly things start changing.
uncertainty is sometimes worth having, as it makes us more adapted to  changes and we do start accepting facts more and more easily.
i do believe in positivity, that once we start believing something with our heart and mind to it, we get it anyhow. but still this feeling of doubt of never getting something we want never goes away. Every time we have to be alert about keeping our mind onto the positive wavelength is really exhausting.
I was just standing on bus stop waiting for my bus in the morning, and i saw a mother taking her kid to school. and i suddenly had thought, i would be in this position in few years, the girl around me will be in that situation too. probably a boy standing near to me would be at a different stage.
our dynamic states makes our life more interesting. projecting ourselves in future is always a favorite task of us. when i was in my graduation the only thing I thought was that i just want to leave my home town and go to a place where i will get more exposure. and now when i look back at my those days, i feel wow.. i don'd believe that i finally achieved it. now the next task or rather a big picture is to be make would be the great academics and my ultimate goal of finding a worthwhile job where i will achieve my next dream of being part of a high class corporate crowd.
and i always have to be alert about that dream, don't just imagine, live the dream thats what i wanna implement.
"the secret's" philosophy is a little difficult to believe, but i really experienced some great effects of it in my life. and who's rejecting the idea of thinking everything will be alright. not just by saying it. but actually working for it too.
it gives you some concrete base to rely on. and you try to give your best in all the things you do to achieve that thing.
I will be continuing of course that how my life is going to be . but i already know the virtual pages of my blog and the empty pages of my diary are going to be filled with the challenging and  joyous moment of my life. Well I still have a little uncertainty but no worry!!!
Thing will eventually be clear with time.... :)
Just have to wait for the right timing.

viviendo el sueño!- Living the dream

Hola amigos... finally I got MCA direct second year admission at SIOM-Pune. one of prime colleges for mca and mba in pune.
sometimes I dont believe that finally my dream of coming to a metro city for my further education is complete. but then it feels great that when you have a wish. no matter how much hurdles you have to go through. you  get it.
its the same about my post graduation. i finally have the opportunity and now all i have to do is to work hard for next  two years, and gain a good job in this same city.
i am so close to achieving my dream now. :)
so today was the first day in my new college, its absolutely the best educational environment I ever saw. I went to make my registration and then waited a little more for my friend. and from tomorrow my classes will start.
 about pune, my opinion is a little biased. though being at a place where rain pours for whole day was my dream as a rain lover, but when it really rains with that consistency it becomes annoying. but still i kind of like the chilly air here. our little apartment, and especially our campus of college in rain.
so i am darn sure that I am going  to enjoy a lot here. :)
wish me luck everyone, I am on the verge of starting new phase of my life.
Hasta La Vista...
(Yeah, I am still into spanish!) :D

español - el lenguaje del amor y alemán ..

     hola amigos. es un poco raro que estoy escribiendo mi blog en español. yo siempre deseé poder aprenderlo también. así voy a intentar por lo básico de aprendizaje. estoy escribiendo blog en google traductor que es absolutamente increíble.
Ojalá hubiera encontrado esto antes. : P
la primera vez que me he encontrado diferentes idiomas divertían era cuando yo estaba leyendo un libro, la abundancia de katherine. cuando un amigo de Colin le pide decir palabra única en diferentes idiomas. era absolutamente increíble que se puede decir todo esto.
y yo quería ser esa.
aunque yo ahora podría ser capaz de aprender lo más que lenguas como colin, pero esperemos que me gustaría aprender al menos 2 más idiomas aparte de mi lengua materna, mi lengua nacional y, por supuesto, Inglés.
aunque yo no sé lo que he escrito en español, yo todavía lo encuentro hermoso. :)
el lenguaje del amor.

Worth it... 3 hours of back paining and eye straining totally worth it...

how many times do we get the feeling of doing something and then feel that its worth it. I like to sketch, well i am not any high profile sketching artist who takes surroundings and started drawing. but i like it. i just look up on internet and find the best ones and try to copy them and i feel that yes i can do that.
Yeah i can copy, but still haven't found originality it sucks sometimes, but maybe i am still in learning process. When i checked out that beautiful caged bird art on ghost stories cover i felt so inside that. "Man i gotta draw this".
I did the best i could do, and didn't allowed myself to do any mistake. and it turned out to be great.
I even thought of a great line for it...
We are free, yet caged... :)

 then i stared feeling that i should do something for my one of the worlds most favorite musicians and so i decided to make a silhouette painting and then that turned out to be this...

well its the hardest of all because you cant allow any mistake or its totally ruined. well i kind of have ruined the y there. :P but it feels so nice to draw something which is so meaningful for us. and i am sure i am gonna have this one with me forever. i might hung it in my room (Once i have a one). :)

then till the night i found another one, which was easy yet good. so at evening i draw that one.

 and finally i was still not satisfied that i wanted to draw those feather wings art, but it turned out to be so exquisite detail which i couldn't show in just a sketch. so i tried the beautiful butterfly instead and in between chats and reading i spend entire night working on it. and finished it at 3 a.m :D
and this is it.

the very thing i like about sketching is, just a little shade adds something so much to a simple drawing. it gives a depth which we want in it. it makes it beautiful just by a stroke. and you dont have to be any master or anything. well yes the originality, thats where all the point is. you can say something you drawn by yourself when you actually draw it without copying it. :) but still sketching will be the best of art i can do. i like when it glows with just a little brushing of black on surface. :) like magic dust of charcoal. its still beautiful. and now the last one which i originally draw with a photo of someone. well it turned out to be best in originality i can do. so here it is. :)

Well i wish someday i might be that practiced enough to sketch someone in front of me. Still i love whatever i draw cause it makes me beyond happy when i finally give it a final touch and i love it when i go through my old sketches. :)
so its totally worth it... the back paining due to leaning in to focus and eye straining to make no mistake. :)
and the last one when my friend gave it effects and it looks something entirely different i cant believe that i draw it...

eh? can you believe it? its the same drawing... :D 

so here's a one to great pleasure of doing something we love, even though no one admires it. :) well who cares. its for me...

Coldplay Solves My Soul...

             There must be no person in the whole world who doesn't like music or songs. and everyone has a specific spot in themselves for a particular song or even a small note. some inspires us and some makes us realize somethings which we can never explain.
             well for me I would say, from the minute I heard the first song of coldplay, I couldn't stop myself from listening the same song for hours by keeping the repeat mode. and it was "Every teardrop is a waterfall." For my grad school I had to travel half an hour to my college and while the journey the lyrics and notes of songs turned my days into something so different I can only experience. There has been an unbroken relation afterwards between my travels and coldplay songs. I downloaded the lyrics so I could soak the meaning of beautiful songs and every time I felt myself so happy the second any song would start on a guitar note.
Recently I found a quote on internet that "perfection is measured in coldplay lyrics" and I was 200 hundred percent agree with it.
                I read somewhere that coldplay music is styled as the meditative or blue romantic and I totally agree with it, It really helped me during some tough periods of my life. I would listen to the beautiful notes and cords along with chris martin's emotionally fulfilled voice pouring like rain for hours and hours and never want to turn that off.
           I am a classical singer too, well I am not really that devoted singer but I truly feel happy or touched by some extraordinary symphonies and I think thats why it makes me a good listener than a singer.
and its just really amazing that even right now while writing this blog I have "Sky full of stars" playing on, at the  back of my mind. It feels like you are listening to an invisible radio so far somewhere but still so close.
            I am already sure my life might lead me in any direction I want, but these songs will be with me in every journey I take. I will have them with me,  like the most desired thing which you want, and always feel safe that you have them.
To ColdPlay... My most favorite band in the world... Who makes me feel always- Extraordinary...
:)

Great books, and end of holidays...

       Sometimes I just don't get this, why every time in every holiday I get something good to read at the end? I spent 3 full months totally doing nothing except wasting my time on net, sleeping and yeah a short trip. And now when my holiday is this close to end I started reading a great book and now I don't ever want it to end.
     I found myself looking at my kindle reader at the page count and feeling sad as it goes towards the end. It has happened many times before too at the time I was reading Twilight's last book or Looking for alaska and many more.
     and this time I started reading "to kill a mockingbird". FINALLY!!! because I have tried to read it many times before but couldn't go further than 10 pages maximum. because of that boo radley first i thought its about a ghost or something like that animation movie of haunted house of neighbor. but then I made up my mind and decided to finish it somehow, and now when I am totally into this book. I don't ever want to know how it ends.
      I wander how some people can imagine or write such beautiful stories that we never ever want to stop reading. There are no difficult literature words, neither tragedies its just a simple tale from a 8 years old girl's view. and maybe thats why it seems so intense. It feels so real when their father gives them advices of simple good behavior. I felt so proud of our generation which has president Obama as a president of America, and suddenly I felt why his presence there is so utmost important. Its not just the way he struggled, there has been decades of struggling of all the people who strived for independence and freedom. I couldn't help but cry at the line where Jem says to change the law which makes black people guilty, and Atticus says
“You’d be surprised how hard that’d be. I won’t live to see the law
changed, and if you live to see it you’ll be an old man." and I felt so happy for a reason that we have changed the law, and we live in a world which does not care what is the color of our skin is.
Nothing is eternal in this world, the thing which you might feel will stay as it is and there is no possibility of change then it must be wrong. Because even the smallest efforts counts in the biggest changes and thats what makes us sustainable I guess.
To a great piece of literature... To kill a mockingbird. I will never forget a tale of a 8 year old girl which made my end of holiday unforgettable.

Welcome to elsewhere...

           Recently while searching for books, I found a pdf named Elsewhere. Initially when I started to read, i found it a really childish novel. around 20 pages I found what was really going on and then I started to get angry on that girl named Liz.
           Well angry for this because, books theme is based on after life. It depicts an idea of existing another parallel world where we get to live our life backwards and then when we become little babies again one day we get the birth on the earth again.
           So the girl gets pretty upset when she hears about all this stuff, and she wants to go back to earth.
The only question my mind was yelling that, why? why? why?
           why would anyone wanna come back to the getting old, fear of dying, and another many reasons which makes living forward difficult? Elsewhere sounds like perfect place where we can never get old, we get to choose any job we want through acclamation something. we get younger day by day, there is beach, and man there are people of our ages too. we get to live with people we once lost. Its like a perfect idea for afterlife.
         but apart from this, story goes on well, finally liz found her life worthwhile living in elsewhere. she grows backwards and get born as a baby again.
          when I was thinking about this, I found myself so excited about the concept of having such arrangement after our death. well who knows what happens to our soul, or where our thoughts goes. Its like so much mystery to explore.
        Well for me, i found death very fascinating. Its like making our life worth living. Its like after solving a 3 hours paper when you get the answer key. for entire life we have been thinking about what we should do, what we shouldn't do. and finally we are going to figure this all out at the end.
       I have a death wish like thing in my mind. I wish all the  thoughts people think, all the imaginary world they create they must be existing somewhere. I wish, there must be a Harry potter world, or twilight world where all the things the people imagined should be true. as if they were there, and now they imagined the part of worlds they had been, and we get to choose where we want to live in after we stop breathing. after we stop living or for an instance stop existing on earth.
       Maybe it seems too lame to think about something we are not going to find out until we went through it. but still its pretty creative though...
:)
so welcome to elsewhere... where you never get old, sick, no fear of death, and plus you know what is going to be your end. Thanks a lot for thinking this awesome idea.
                                                                                                          -To Gabrielle Zevin.

Sorry! no acceptable quality of work... :P

        Well it all started back when I suddenly had a feeling that I might need to find a job at least part time, to keep us going in our new life at pune. I became so afraid and searched all the (Well almost all :P) part time job opportunities on timesjob and naukri. I found many stay at home typing jobs which pays you 3 rs per page, but it seems so boring so i decided to go for something similar. and I searched in the category of content writing. well I applied 11-12 offers and I had email from a company to give sample article for first round.         I typed a 600 words article on football, as it seemed perfect timing for it. later that week I had another email from the same company to give two sample articles on fast food chains and one rewritten article from any of the news on msn.com. I spend entire day working on them.        I searched proper news to write about but since criminal news are actually based on research and writing about them seems pretty inappropriate. So I went to the travel instead, and found an article on Bali. Well after i finished "Eat,Pray,Love" i sort of have Bali on my wish list so i decided to write about it. I spent hour researching about Bali, and started writing, I had to complete article in 250 words exactly...        and I think this is where I lost it. How are you suppose to write on your favorite subject in only 250 words? Yeah I accept thats where the quality comes. I wrote 500 words and then cut them in order to wrap in around 300 words. I did the same thing about food chains and it became worse. :D         I sent it, and had no reply from them for last 3 days. and when I opened my mail account today, i found this,Sorry! no acceptable quality of work... Hmm, maybe writing about facts isn't my field of work. and even our expenses problem seems to be solved, so I should concentrate more on java internship or system analyst required.:)

To the new horizons...

Since we born, the only people we are ever really close to are our parents. There is no comparison to our folks love to us. Whether it might be a little fight at school or even biggest achievements we have always someone for celebrations. Then we grew up and fell apart, but those bonds and memories will be always cherished.

Well for me our family is not really of showoff type. We don’t hug or tell each other that we love each other. We just knew somehow that we do. Soon enough me and my sister would be moving out for our further education. There will be absolutely new things to enjoy, like new college, new friends, new city.

But it won’t be the same like our home town.  I am so sure that I am going to miss the most just being at home. Even the small things like doing my studies here late night, reading while feeling really sleepy at 2 am in the night, also just watching endless episodes of “Friends” in summer holidays, watching football matches with my father late nights.

From last 21 years this was been my home and now a totally different future is calling for us. And now to embrace it we have to be ready. Everything seems so unbelievable and as if it’s happening to someone else but yet its truth that this is all happening to me, to our lives.

The best part of life is it’s never the same, there will be up and downs and that’s what makes it interesting. J

But I am going to miss you a lot, Miraj... :)

Its just Miracle...

     The first time I saw my maternal place in kokan, in a small village, I knew that I was going to be darn in love with kokan. I might be 7 years old for the first time when I went to my mother’s home at chiplun.

      I still remember the smell of soil, ripe mangoes, and fish which came through the door, and when I passed it I saw my grandmother welcoming me at the door. Our house is still there, built in soil, mud, and big red bricks as they are in kokan. The floor is covered in gober and mud as it is in most of the houses at kokan. We have a little well behind our house which is mostly filled with water in all season, where the little turtles and frogs float, along with our own reflection.

        I remember some days I spent there for some reason,

The day when I saw the real snake in my life ever. I was 8 or 10 years maybe. I was collecting flowers in the bushes for the reason I don’t remember, and suddenly I heard a unusual hissing sound coming from the dried leaves and I saw a gray colored snake going into the bushes, I felt so afraid as if I’d done something wrong and I ran from there paralyzed with fear. While panting I told mother that I saw a snake there, and she said it’s nothing, there are some snakes in the bushes. I felt why she is being so casual about it? I saw a real SNAKE…

       I remember my father going into the jungle through the little stream of water on the back of our house, which is mostly filled till the knee length only in the season of monsoon. He would stroll in the water as if its road and would go to further in the jungle.

I remember one day in rain. In kokan rain doesn’t feel like it’s mostly raining, it feels as if someone if pouring water through sky, I rain so heavily that all the mud and soil would flood away with it. Through the window we could see red water flooding as if its waterfall. We felt as if our house if floating in that waterfall. There were no light, and we stayed in the kerosene lamps, eating rice and fish.

         I remember once when I was returning to my place with bus, and it was really a pleasant evening when the sun rays were so orange and golden enough to make the red mountains look like they were dipping in sun light. It was the most beautiful evening I ever spent just looking at their beaming with sun light as if they were mirrors reflecting sun.

        My grandmother passed when I was little, so automatically we couldn’t really visit our home back there as before.

Then we would make trips at kokan, at beaches, at temples. And all I remember is the long stretched roads, with the trees of mangoes, cashews along side of the road. The roads taking curves as the snakes, and you feel as if you are sitting in the large cups at the fun fair which revolving around.

      Recently when we visited kokan we spent on entire evening at beach just strolling on the sand and small waves. It was a time for low tides and all the water has gone behind leaving beautiful trails of waves on sand, and sand wet enough to draw anything on it. The sky was painted in orange, blue, and purple and pink the color you name it was there as if it was made up of rainbow. And its beautiful reflection was on the wet sand making the whole beach as a big canvas painting where the sky was drawn in watercolor. Along with waves so clear enough to see the trails it was making.

     Yet I don’t know what is more beautiful the sea made up of so many miracles, or the moon which creates the waves or the sky which makes it look so beautiful or the horizon which makes sea infinite to look. It always has been an amazing experience whenever I went to a beach and saw waves breaking on the shore or the sun dipping into the sea leaving its orange color upon the sky.

      I think its one of the places which inspires me, yet make aware for future and even calms my mind like meditation. 

Its just miracle.

A story of Hope-"shawshank redemption"

   How many of you people have ever watched the film “shawshank redemption”? well those who haven’t yet, I would like to tell you this… you got to see it…

    It’s the story of hope, prison, emotions and finally freedom.

Well first of all I had this film in my laptop for like and year, I thought as this movie was war based something so never really watched it before, but today was the day when I finally saw it, and for the first time in so many months I felt I saw a movie worth inspiring this much.

    It not only has a beautiful story to tell, but also loaded with inspiring quotes , and also some moments where you feel like where the hell we have been not to notice such a great pain and loss which destroys a man’s life because a crime he committed or maybe did not.

    The moment I felt like crying when the old brook dies by hanging himself by the rope, giving us a shock by reality that how difficult it might be to gain  a suddenly new life after spending it in really different way for 50 years.

     When we are finally thinking that Andy will just fed up and die, there’s like miracle where we found out he just escaped, escaped from a tunnel. We have already considered that with that stone hammer no man can dig a tunnel deep that, but then suddenly we just found out he was that man who did that, by being hopeful for 20 years. He digs that tunnel to escape. And that’s the best part I guess.

    And the best moment was when red is reading Andy’s letter. When he wrote that “hope is good thing, maybe the best of the things, and no good thing ever dies.”

     I sometimes avoid to use the word hope, it makes us somewhat weaker I think. Like we are waiting for something magical to happen, which is worthless, because magic only occurs in dreams and in Hogwarts. The more I believe is the word efforts, every time someone gives be best luck and courage, I say “I will try my best.”

    Which is the one sentence gives me courage to give my best shots and that everything will be good. I think it’s my form of hope, but anyhow some times in our life it doesn’t matter how much life suck or either how at the dead end we are,

All we gotta believe is that,

“Hope never dies,

So I will try my best…”

What I have been waiting for…

      Recently I was reading my favorite book chicken soup for the soul on the one night before my exam paper,and  I found an awesome story there.

It’s a list of 100 things for which the writer is waiting.

1. Inspiration

2. Permission

3. Reassurance

4. The coffee to be ready

5. My turn

6. Someone to smooth the way

7. The rest of the rules

8. Someone to change

9. Wider fairways

10. Revenge

11. The stakes to be lower

12. More time

13. A significant relationship to:

(a) improve

(b) terminate

(c) happen

14. The right person

15. A disaster

16. Time to almost run out

17. An obvious scapegoat

18. The kids to leave home

19. A Dow-Jones of 1500

20. The Lion to lie down with the Lamb

21. Mutual consent

22. A better time

23. A more favorable horoscope

24. My youth to return

25. The two-minute warning

26. The legal profession to reform

27. Richard Nixon to be re-elected

28. Age to grant me the right of eccentricity

29. Tomorrow

30. Jacks or better

31. My annual checkup                                                                                                 32. A better circle of friends                                                                                    
33. The stakes to be higher                                                                                       34. The semester to start

35. My way to be clear

36. The cat to stop clawing the sofa

37. An absence of risk

38. The barking dog next door to leave town

39. My uncle to come home from the service

40. Someone to discover me

41. More adequate safeguards

42. A lower capital gains rate

43. The statute of limitations to run out

44. My parents to die (Joke!)

45. A cure for herpes/AIDS

46. The things that I do not understand or approve of to go away

47. Wars to end

48. My love to rekindle

49. Someone to be watching

50. A clearly written set of instructions

51. Better birth control

52. The ERA to pass

53. An end to poverty, injustice, cruelty, deceit, incompetence,

pestilence, crime and offensive suggestions

54. A competing patent to expire

55. Chicken Little to return

56. My subordinates to mature

57. My ego to improve

58. The pot to boil

59. My new credit card

60. The piano tuner

61. This meeting to be over

62. My receivables to clear

63. The unemployment checks to run out

64. Spring

65. My suit to come back from the cleaners

66. My self-esteem to be restored

67. A signal from Heaven

68. The alimony payments to stop

69. The gems of brilliance buried within my first bumbling efforts to be recognized, applauded and substantially rewarded so that I can work on the second draft in comfort
70. A reinterpretation of Robert's Rules of Order

71. Various aches and pains to subside

72. Shorter lines at the bank

73. The wind to freshen

74. My children to be thoughtful, neat, obedient and self-supporting

75. Next season

76. Someone else to screw up

77. My current life to be declared a dress rehearsal with some script changes permitted before opening night

78. Logic to prevail

79. The next time around

80. You to stand out of my light

81. My ship to come in

82. A better deodorant

83. My dissertation to be finished

84. A sharp pencil

85. The check to clear

86. My wife, film or boomerang to come back

87. My doctor's approval, my father's permission, my minister's blessing or my lawyer's okay

88. Morning

89. California to fall into the ocean

90. A less turbulent time

91. The Iceman to Cometh

92. An opportunity to call collect

93. A better write-off

94. My smoking urges to subside

95. The rates to go down

96. The rates to go up

97. The rates to stabilize

98. My grandfather's estate to be settled

99. Weekend rates

100. A cue card

101. You to go first

David B. Campbell.

So here is the list of 100 things the writer was been waiting. I thought at least I can try finding out what I am waiting for… so here it goes.

1.     To complete my graduation with satisfactory marks

     2.     A renowned post-graduation college

     3.     A real college life with true friends

     4.     Recession to end

     5.     For a campus interview to get a job

     6.     A high profile job

     7.     For a first payment to take a gift to my family

     8.     For my own bike

     9.     For my own car

    10.    For my own house in the middle of city

    11.     A extra large bookshelf

    12.    A new pair of contacts with gray shade

    13.    A laser operation

    14.   A trip to Malaysia, France, New York city, Maldives’ beach

    15.  Sky dive

    16.   Deep sea dive

    17. A jackpot

    18.  One chance to do many things

    19.  End of my stage fright

    20. End of my communication fright

    21.     Restoring my confidence

    22.    End of nervous breakdowns

    23.     My own apple i-pod

    24.My first published book

    25.  A simple comment of praising(without any ‘but…’)

    26. A proposal

    27.  A kiss

    28.   A proposal to marriage

    29.    A peaceful life

    30.   World changing event

    31.   And finally a death- to find out where this all leads…

Oops… still something remaining…:P

If there’s afterlife… well let it be…J

A successful life or an incomplete one?

 The incidence happened few days ago. I was in pune for my campus interview, suddenly I had message from my sister saying a girl from her class committed suicide, By hanging herself to fan.

Initially I was shocked, obviously she was of my sister age hardly 18 years old. What might have caused to take such decision?  My sister said she was disturbed from few days, maybe boyfriend problem. Some days ago even I heard some shocking news about the girls from my classroom while we were gossiping among ourselves. I said that how girls behave so irresponsibly where we have so different thought process going on in this age. When we hear something like this we get shocked only.

Even though we are free to do whatever we want to do as being an independent women, aren’t there any limits we should have? We see so many incidence happening around us. We make huge regrets about the place of women in our society, isn’t this our responsibility to at least keep our dignity?

 I have seen some my friends life getting wasted due to this boyfriends and similar things, everyday I hear so many incidence from my sister about her friends.   

I wander why would they behave such? Is just wandering with so called love, enjoying (actually ruining) those days which are so important to built the life is so easy? Just today our one teacher said once you ruin your first 20 years of your life you can never be successful in your entire life. Maybe this isn’t totally accepted but it has a little meaning, as once we never have that maturity in the proper age we can never expect ourselves to understand seriousness of life.

I am not at all denying the relationships, love affairs to be the part of our life, those are obviously the best memories of our life, but this is even true if these relationships resulting into such ugly incidence what’s the use of our love interests?

Obviously our life isn’t only of ourselves, our parents, siblings have so many dreams, hopes from us. Is it right to end the only life we get for such miner things?

Actually I think the main base of our healthy mind and ability to choose what’s right for us lies within ourselves. We are the only once who can change our fate. And for that we only need to believe and understand where we want to end up. A successful life or an incomplete one?

Being on your own...

Phew…heartbeats are increasing. Going to face first interview of my life. This all seems so unreal. In nearly three months I will be a graduate, and hoping to be on my own. This is the dream I have been waiting for myself, to have a job, achievements and enough money to live on my own.

I wonder what my father might have felt during this period of him. But I think this is kind of amazing phase in everyone’s life. We grow, we go to school, we complete education, we get a job. And in the mean time watching at ourselves in the past seems so far.

I found a book recently “the secret”. Well it says you get all you want in your life if you wish for it with your heart and remain persistent about the wish. I think this is best way to give your best for whatever you want in your life. We think that our future is unseen and its unpredictable. But according to book it says whatever we are now is the result of our thoughts back in our past. We get exactly the same we wish for. So now I won’t say I don’t know where I will be in next 5 years, rather I would say I know where I will be.

I am going to be an independent woman, living in a metro city, my heart full of hopes and dreams about my future. I am going to live my life exactly the same way I wished it would be. J

So to being matured and taking first step into adulthood.  Wish me luck everyone…J